Holding Yourself Back

Remember this saying?
“That boy is holding himself back.”
Or in school; someone was “held back.”

I remember as a kid hearing that phrase. Recently I began to meditate on the idea of holding myself back and wondered what that meant now.  What would I be “holding myself back” from?

Then it dawned on me. I could potentially be holding myself back from being hurt.  I mean, after all, what is fear of success?  That’s right, fear of success is holding yourself back. What is fear of failure?  Yup, fear of failure is holding yourself back.
When did it all get so complicated to say something so simple?
So what does it mean to let go?
If I’m “holding,” then that means letting go is the solution, right?

So I decided to try something different with the Color Wisdom Cards with this idea in mind. I meditated on the energy of holding back.

Then I pulled a card to indicate letting go.

My card was Demon Red Rainbow!  The key word isInsecurity and the quote from the fable is ”the greatest adversary is the one living inside of me.”

I laughed.  It actually makes the message of this month very simple.  If what holds us back is inside, then perhaps the key is to see what our own “demon” or worry is about.

By the way, our hold back is always about healing.

The Meditation of the Month is about getting to know our own “hold back” energy in order to be fully at Peace with ourselves. All my meditations are 4 – 7 minutes long.  Create the space to meet your own shadow and you may find out why you are protecting yourself.

I am so excited about working on my new training, and my new jewelry!  What are you excited about?

Love to all!

Tori